the plan

it is 18 degrees and snowing. i really need to see the sun.
i am on winter break from school, which means i am working full time and feeling like i am just spinning my wheels. yesterday, i decided i want to be a physical therapist. this is after a tormented day and night of trying to figure out what i want to be when i "grow up". i felt as though i needed a BIG PLAN for my future or i may dissolve into nothingness. i soul searched, which consisted of internet browsing, text messaging my best friend and crying a lot. i feel bad for dave, i think i stressed him out too.
i'm back to wanting to be a nurse, after all that fuss. PT would be cool too, i think i'd be really good at it, but it would be another SIX years of school. i'm having a really difficult time handling being a starving student, i don't want to do this for another six years. i don't think i have it in me.
i am looking forward to chemistry and english comp, which start january 25th.
dave is back from walgreens and we are going to eat dinner (i cooked chicken stirfry). he went to get gingerale for me because i had a craving. isn't he just the sweetest?